Its June already ... time just flies like crazy ... 2008 seems like going away too fast ... so many things wanna do ... but not yet done ... so many places wanna go ... but not yet gone ... sometimes I would think I am trapped here ... there is no holidays here in Las Vegas ... everyday is working day and every hour is working hour ... just see who could handle it the best ... but you can never be the best ... cause there must be someone better than you ... you just have to work harder and harder to try to improve yourself ... improve yourself as a person ... improve yourself as a instrument of God ...

Talking about being God's servant ... I consider myself still a rookie of that ... because I still have a lot to learn and lot to improve ... to be able to be God's servant is a precious thing ... but sometimes I don't treasure it enough ... sometimes I just take it for granted ... sometimes I just didn't put my best effort to serve God ... I know I could much better ... but I really thank God for giving me this CBC ... and also giving me these brothers and sisters around me ... I learned a lot from them ... the ways you should handle things ... they way you should take care of others ... the way you could serve God ... these are all the things I learn from them ...

Like Rev. Sin said ... being a leader of the group is not because I am more superior or I have better skills or anything ... its only because I made more mistakes ... but the most important thing is you learned from those mistakes ... that's the thing I still have to learn ... to learn from mistakes ... to avoid the same mistakes happen again in the future ... that's pretty difficult ... and the even harder thing is that being a leader ... you have to teach others not to have those mistakes you had before ... the first thing to do is to set an example to others ... that's what I challenge myself to do for the rest of 2008 ...

要配合你再辛苦   辛苦比快樂都算太渺小   在訓練裡讓我學會   為對方的偏差值得折腰

It has been super super long since the last time i came here ... almost half a year already ... xanga really did change a lot ... I have to use almost 5 minutes to figure out how to write a new blog  ... I still don't know if I will keep up my daily updates ... but I really think I should resume that ... that's actually pretty good for myself ... not only I could catch some very nice memories ... but also keep counting God's grace along the way of my life ...

Just finished the 3 days 2 night "Fire Up for Jesus" CBC Retreat Camp ... very tired after the camp ... from the beginning of the preparation ... to all the meetings and buying and packing ... to actually going to the camp and enjoying it ... its really a wonderful experience ... the whole thing belongs to God ... no matter what we do ... God has His own purpose ... I really thank God for giving me this chance to serve Him ... being part of the Planning Committee is a very challenging thing ... but when everything comes to end and see how God use this camp as His blessings ... I will never forget that feeling that rush into my mind ... that joy is incomparable ... I really hope that everyone of us could keep that fire inside our hearts ... to glorify God and to serve God whole heartedly ...

Welcome Ginny to be part of God's big family ... I really thank God for touching her heart that night ... God could do amazing things with everything ... I also thank God for all the brothers and sisters from Dove Garden ... they are the best ... the supportive spirit ... the united spirit is very nice ... nothing could take away the bonding we gathered ... I just hope God will continue to guide this group through the ups and downs and throughout the rest of the year ... I believe God will be right there for us ...

我們成為一家人   因著耶穌   因著耶穌   成為神國的子民

Have been walking around and look for a Wii ... but just can't find any of them here around the whole Las Vegas ... its really kinda ridiculous that there is not a single one for that long period of time ... we have been looking for it for almost 1 week nonstop ... we keeping going and calling and asking all the branches of Walmart ... Target ... Best Buy ... Radio Shack ... Sears ... Fry's ... there is just none of them in stock ... how crazy is that ... don't know if we can get one before Christmas ... cause its really getting frustrated and depress after being rejected for almost 100 times this past week ... tomorrow morning will be the last time we go out and check ... if we still can't get any of them ... I really don't know when to get it ...

to be continue ....

Yesterday I went to Fashion Show Mall with Kelly ... just kinda relax a little bit after finished 1 exams yesterday morning ... we walked around and we had lots of fun laughing here and there ... but the best part was we went to a both near the catwalk bridge ... it a Wii's both !!! we were so excited and we both ran to the both and started playing ... at first we were playing tennis ... we played with each other and we started to get bored ... so we went to the next to it and they have Super Mario Galaxy !!! we were so into the game ... we love that game to much ... we started playing and we didn't know how to stop ... we start getting stars and everything and tried to finish all the tasks ... we spent more than 1 hour standing there and play with that game ... we just couldn't stop ... and finally we decided to get 1 more star and that's it ... but even after we left ... we still miss that game so much ... and we decided to get a Wii no matter what ... but first thing is that we have to get a decent television to play that game ... cause its kinda waste if we play with our tiny television ... that's really a big obstacle for us ... just can't wait to get that game for play non-stop for this holiday ...

Mario really grow with me ... my very first video game is a Mario game ... just wanna keep in touch and keep update with all the Mario stuffs ... so I decided to save money to get a Wii for us ... so that we can play all the time ... but just try to finished this game first before we get another one ... cause I think we will spend so many time of it when we get lots of games ... and surely it really cost lots of money ... so I think I really have to save more and get this great game ... that's my short term goal ...

The last final will be tomorrow ... just can't wait to finish all the finals ... all other finals got pretty smoothly these few days ... thank God for all that ... and the best thing is that when we were studying at the library ... they give out free food ... that's the best part out of all the studying ... those burritos and muffins and bagels are so good ... I just hope they will give out all those things more often ... then I can save more money ... also had a great time studying with Jordan ... Trish ... Kelly and Alywin last night ... they really help me to release some of the pressure when I study ... thank God for all that ...

I think I should go back to Los Angeles and stay with my relatives before New Years come ... it has been so long since the last time I go back to Los Angeles ... the last time I went back was for the NACCA competition ... really wanted to see if I can get some time off and go back ... to see all the great great relatives ... and also my friends over there ... really long time didn't go back and visit them ... but have to finish my exams before saying anything ... so have to stay focus for now ...

今天雖則長高了   牆上繼續掛的   還是我六歲的畫

Busy things are one after another ... after finished 2 big events this season ... which is Thanksgiving Camp and 阿宇&阿Wing's wedding ... there are some more other busy stuffs coming up ... which is another semester ending final exams ... I just finished 1 exam last Thursday ... its not a hard one actually ... but the most difficult ones are coming up this week ... need to put extra more energy and time and strength into these exams ... so looking forward to all the exams being finished ... so I will be free ... nothing else to worry about ... just enjoy and have a great Christmas holiday ... maybe go outside and play around or just stay here in Las Vegas and wait for snow to fall ... just can't wait until the holidays came along ... I have been busy all year long ... just don't have much time for me to take a rest or anything ... just going unstop every day and every week ... so wanna go travel around ... hope I will have a chance this winter ... and of course go ski ...

First time leading worship with Calvin this morning during Sunday Service ... so nervous before and during the worship ... that feeling is undescribable ... I don't know why ... its not because I am afraid of Calvin ... its not because I am afraid of playing the wrong chords ... (cause that's kinda normal according to my skills ...) sometimes I would feel like I am fear of God ... like I fear that God will not be pleased if I don't give the best to Him ... like 2 weeks ago I played drums for singspiration ... I was so nervous and scared ... because I am afraid that I won't be able to give the best to God ... I won't be able to play as smoothly as I should do ... I am afraid that I will mess up the singspiration ... that strange feeling sometimes really bothers me ... but I know that I will give my very best to God ... no matter what happens ... I know I am not a good drums player ... I know I am not a good bass player ... but I will give my very best to God ... so that He will be pleased ... that's all in my mind ... like this morning ... I was just try to do my very best I could ... I know I missed some chords ... I know I sings like an old man ... I know I even sing off beat or off key ... but I am sure its enough to please God if I do my best ... so I am ok with that ... of course I will search for improvements after this experience ... turns out its really difficult to play bass guitar and sings at the same time ... I really need more practice ...

So many first times coming along recently ... like first time play guitar to lead worship for Youth Group ... to play 4 songs ... try to remember all the chords ... try to remember the lyrics of the songs ... try to keep the beat going right ... try to worship God ... try to help brothers and sisters to worship God ... its really difficult ... but everything has a first time ... I know its not a good start ... but at least now I got the taste of how its gonna be ... when later I have to do that on a regular bases ... just need more practice and more practice and more practice ... also first time for doing a little translating this morning ... while Calvin shares and pray ... that's another difficult job ... I am so admire what Stephen and Jordan and Candy do every week ... translating is really not an easy job ... to say the right word and the actual meaning of what the original speech ... its just pretty hard ... but after this first time ... I will gain more confidence on that ... also first time sings and play bass at the same time during singspiration ... like I said ... difficult ... finally understand why bass player and drums player can't sing ... cause they just can't ... its so easy to mess up the beat ... for next week ... there will be another first time ... which is being the presider of the Sunday Service ... I am sure that's another not easy job to do ... but no matter what I am going to do ... and how difficult every job is ... my heart is just to serve God ... I think that's the most important thing ... God will take care of the rest ... I just have to show up and God will guide me through ... thank God ...

Played soccer tonight ... even though I have an exam tomorrow ... like last week ... some arguments coming along the way ... its always not a good thing ... but these things happen ... I still don't know why people like to play soccer with their mouths ... if you are being kicked ... just remind that person gently ... you don't have to say all those bad words and everything ... and its even worse to take revenge on others ... I mean ... come on ... let's just play and get some exercise and have fun ... why not come and play and go home with smiling faces ... I really hope that will happen some day ...

So many people are going back to Hong Kong ... that reminds me that I haven't go back since Christmas 2005 ... which was Eddy&Cammy's wedding ... I really don't know when I can go back to Hong Kong ... maybe next Summer ... maybe even later than that ... I really don't know ... I started to miss Hong Kong ... especially my parents ... my relatives ... those 144 stairs and my home ... my friends and everything ... just wanna go back for some time ... but I know at this time I should stay here and finish all my business first ... I know its never gonna end ... but that's how it is ...

彼此看著變高   世間旅途   我們曾以心聲跳舞  如此關係   像光跟影  日後未必找得到